It is with great regret that I am ending (well having a sabbatical) from my blog, WHY I can hear you all shout because well i'm simply boring at the moment and believe it or not this is not a depressed status but one of commonsense.
My last blog consisted of cushions yes cushions and much as I'm sure you wanted to read about them it only proves to me that in all realty I am pretty boring right now.
but ONE day I will be back, whether its because i'm finally back out from these four walls so you can imagine April onwards or .................. when I finally make the move (once again lol) to the Country and the blog can be all that it was supposed to be raising chickens, fresh eggs for breakfast, living life with fresh air (trying to avoid the days they say goodbye to the pigs that is the worse smell ever and I've worked in an operating theatre and that has some awful smells) long walks in fields with the dog (i'm also obviously planning a miraculous recovery) but maybe it is all relative I was fine in Norfolk, I was fine in Stokenchurch lots of fresh air walks with both moved back to the fast paced and stressful life of Uxbridge and before I know it ........................................i'm down on the floor So I'm off to get myself as well as I can get, I'm proud of the fact that despite my illness I get up every morning and run my business (although I'm pretty rough by the afternoon I've achieved all I can) and after a rest by the evening I get back to work on the business once again (still striving to buy a house one day). I try and spend as much time with my kids as possible no one can feel you more with happiness than your children, despite having 4 boys and 1 girl I'm blessed that they all get on (well they do now), I have FAB friends who offer me great support and the BEST husband (despite my blogs :P ) loves and helps me 24/7 and I really couldn't do it without him.
So farewell and thank you for reading and hopefully you'll still be around when the next installment of blogs begins............................
It is 5.11am and I am awake and blogging, which is A: a good thing as it means little man is asleep and I have the laptop B: a bad thing as it means some nondescript person has annoyed me so much it has woken me up.
So what happened - I brought a game that consists of breaking down blocks for absolutely no reason for my son who has already broken his 1st game that came at Xmas (how can a game break so soon, should be my first anger issue) then the game didn't arrive in the time that was stated so I contacted the seller (you can see where I brought it from) they finally replied saying it had been posted through my letter box on the 31st January and they had the tracking information.
It was sent through a courier company called Amazon Logistics (never heard of them before but a well known first name) I said Ok but it hasn't come through my letter box so I'll need to contact the company, the company wouldn't speak to me as I am NOT the customer.I contact the seller again and explain I can't chase up my item as they are the couriers customer not me - they reply back (weirdly always with a kiss as if that softens the blow) this is what they wrote!
"hello, no problem, however i cannot contact them about this item as it
is marked as delivered, once it has been delivered i can no longer
inquire about the item apart from viewing the tracking order which does
in fact state it has been delivered to your house, i do not understand
how the item could not be at your house if the tracking information has
stated its been delivered and the address is correct? it was definitely
delivered on the 31st in the mail slot, is there anyway it could have
gotten misplaced through your mail slot? thankyou x"
Hence why I'm awake at some godly hour, can't hear a sound outside even the birds are still asleep.
Whilst I'm awake for no reason other than sheer frustration, I must confess something (and as I know no one else will be awake no one will see this) but ..........................
I buy too many cushions, nothing so great as too many shoes, too many bags even too much jewellery no little old me buys too many cushions.
We moved into our house 17 months ago and the cushions have been (and each colour change means a new set of cushions EVEN if I go back to an original colour as I would have sold the first ones, to buy the next ones lol)
pink and lime green (summertime when purchased them and I also should point out i'm buying 4/6 cushions at a time).
then I went for brown velvet but it was really dark and disgusting so I won't even show a picture of them. Then (as its still winter) a purple and gold this isn't the same cushion but is the closest design to it but mine had more gold in it.
Then I went for Red chenille then I tried pictures Elvis, Marilyn and Paris in black and white (really cheap covers but were horrible material - you get what you pay for) then I went back to the original Pink / Green ones and I mean the exact same ones but rebrought aaargh!! Then I had 3 really lovely petal type pillows that I tried to get everything to match with
really hard to match as you can see (my actual photo of my old armchair/loveseat) as the cushions are two toned but such lovely cushions, have thrown away, given to charity or sold these ones in case ONE day I can find the perfect use. Ie ; in the suntrap conservatory overlooking the sea???? In fact in my quest look at houses recently I came across a 1970 /80's throw back house with a sea view in Ingoldmells, Lincs http://www.rightmove.co.uk/property-for-sale/property-28231698.html
back to the cushions (sorry I get easily distracted) I have a 3 seater, a 4 seater and an armchair in my living room with a total of 19 cushions, no wonder I come down the stairs every morning and they're on the floor again. Anyway I settle for 4 soft touch mocha cushions, 4 light brown faux fur cushions , 4 heather soft touch cushions, 2 small purple cushions and 3 x-large cream cushions that came with the sofa and I've never changed (although I have been tempted) but ................ I haven't finished I also have a sofa bed in the Dining Rm and that has 5 cushions on with a nautical theme exact cushion shown I have 2 of them, then 3 others with shells, beach huts etc you get the idea and you'll be pleased to know NO cushions on my bed.
I have my son's parent evening at college tomorrow night and am I worried about what might be said, nooooooooooooooo he's a good lad but as us parent know parents evening is compulsory even at College but the thing I am worried about and must say this quietly is getting there.
With my illness I sometimes struggle to drive a car in fact the last time I drove now would be roughly 4 weeks ago.But and I'm going to come across all (female) Victor Meldrewy I can't stand my husbands driving. Is that a bad thing to say??? The last time I got in the car with him he drove me to Uxbridge so I could have a Costa with the girls and I swear my face almost melted into a lorrys. My life flashed before my eyes and possibly the lorry drivers but he would have at least survived all the way u there in his castle. I think he went to the Frank Spencer school of motoring and they passed him as didn't want to see him back there again, hee hee (ssssh or he may never taxi me around again)
Aw such memories of a happy childhood watching great sitcoms, Some Mothers do have them, Fawlty Towers, Butterflies (I cry with laughter when I watch them) when I was older but still young if you get my meaning I watched Vince and Penny now what was that show called??? Ah "Just Good Friends".
But back to the driving how to cope in enforced stressful situations ???? I have taken some advice from Psych Central.
When dealing with stressful situations, consider the four points
below. They may aid in decreasing the amount of stress and changing the
way you view it.
Nothing and no one can “make” you feel anything.
How you feel and the way you deal with a situation is a choice. I’m
reminded of a counselor who would often state “no one can drive your car
unless you give them the keys.” You cannot control others’ actions,
but you can be responsible for your reactions.In English then I have given hubby my car keys and now I must cope with the repercussions of my actions, I must not constantly put my hands up to my eyes whilst he is driving, or let him now that he is driving in both lanes, or tell him someone is about to cross over the road etc etc. I will mediate through the journey (possibly with my eyes closed as if the music in my head is sending me to a wonderful place and I am not, not being driven anywhere by a scary driver)
The serenity prayer states “God grant me the serenity to accept the
things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and
the wisdom to know the difference.” COURAGE a very apt word in this situation, yes I can recite this when it gets too much :P .When applied, this can be a great
stress reliever. Look at the situation and ask yourself “is this
something I can change?” If so, start exploring positive ways to change
the situation.
If the situation cannot be changed, such as an illness or the
economy, accept it for what it is. Accepting does not mean giving up.
By accepting the situation and finding ways you can cope with what
cannot be changed, stress can be drastically reduced.
Exchange attitude for gratitude. Our attitude has a
profound effect on how we deal with situations. Negative attitudes
affect our physical, spiritual, and mental wellbeing.
When in a particularly stressful situation, try exchanging attitude
for gratitude. When you are running late for a meeting because you are
stuck in traffic, change your attitude. Instead of being frustrated
about the traffic, find some gratitude. Look around and think of all
the things you can be thankful for. Sometimes you can find gratitude in
the smallest things. You can be thankful for life, health, strength,
friends, family, nature, etc. Focusing on gratitude can definitely
change your attitude. I am grateful that hubby is kindly taking me out of the house, I will accept that gratitude and the fact that I age by 5 years (at least) every time I get in the car with him with the gratitude it deserves lol.
Relax, relax, relax. Amidst the hustle and bustle
of everyday life, sometimes we forget to take care of ourselves. If we
do not help ourselves, how can we effectively help others? Relaxation
rejuvenates the body, mind, and spirit and leaves us better equipped to
handle stressful situations when they come.I do hope my humming doesn't annoy him or distract him from his driving!!!!Try to find something that you enjoy and do it every day. If you can
set aside time for relaxation, do it. Try to set aside a designated,
uninterrupted time and stick to it. Many people state they don’t have
time to relax, but relaxation does not have to be time-consuming.
Relaxation can include periodic 5-10 minute breaks of breathing
exercises or watching your favorite show for 30 minutes. Relaxation can
also include connecting with positive people.
Look at the big picture. Evaluate your stressful
situation from a “big picture” point of view. Ask yourself “how
important is this?” and “will this matter in the long run?” If the
answer is no, it’s likely not worth your time and energy. Evaluation and Summary - "how important is this" VERY if I want to see my kids grow up "will this matter in the long run" er YES so that didn't go down very well. In summary I need to get myself and the kids a NEW chauffeur as in the great words of Sir Alan hubby .
“Don’t underestimate the value of Doing Nothing, of
just going along, listening to all the things you can’t hear, and not
bothering.”
- Pooh’s Little Instruction Book, inspired by A.A. Milne
It is with great regret that I am ending (well having a sabbatical) from my blog, WHY I can hear you all shout because well i'm simply boring at the moment and believe it or not this is not a depressed status but one of commonsense.
but ONE day I will be back, whether its because i'm finally back out from these four walls so you can imagine April onwards or .................. when I finally make the move (once again lol) to the Country and the blog can be all that it was supposed to be raising chickens, fresh eggs for breakfast, living life with fresh air (trying to avoid the days they say goodbye to the pigs that is the worse smell ever and I've worked in an operating theatre and that has some awful smells) long walks in fields with the dog (i'm also obviously planning a miraculous recovery) but maybe it is all relative I was fine in Norfolk, I was fine in Stokenchurch lots of fresh air walks with both moved back to the fast paced and stressful life of Uxbridge and before I know it ........................................i'm down on the floor 
So I'm off to get myself as well as I can get, I'm proud of the fact that despite my illness I get up every morning and run my business (although I'm pretty rough by the afternoon I've achieved all I can) and after a rest by the evening I get back to work on the business once again (still striving to buy a house one day). I try and spend as much time with my kids as possible no one can feel you more with happiness than your children, despite having 4 boys and 1 girl I'm blessed that they all get on (well they do now), I have FAB friends who offer me great support and the BEST husband (despite my blogs :P ) loves and helps me 24/7 and I really couldn't do it without him.
for my son who has already broken his 1st game that came at Xmas (how can a game break so soon, should be my first anger issue) then the game didn't arrive in the time that was stated so I contacted the seller (you can see where I brought it from) they finally replied saying it had been posted through my letter box on the 31st January and they had the tracking information.
I contact the seller again and explain I can't chase up my item as they are the couriers customer not me - they reply back (weirdly always with a kiss as if that softens the blow) this is what they wrote!
(summertime when purchased them and I also should point out i'm buying 4/6 cushions at a time).
this isn't the same cushion but is the closest design to it but mine had more gold in it.
then I tried pictures Elvis, Marilyn and Paris in black and white (really cheap covers but were horrible material - you get what you pay for) 
, 4 heather soft touch cushions, 2 small purple cushions and 3 x-large cream cushions that came with the sofa and I've never changed (although I have been tempted) but ................ I haven't finished I also have a sofa bed in the Dining Rm and that has 5 cushions on with a nautical theme 
exact cushion shown I have 2 of them, then 3 others with shells, beach huts etc you get the idea and you'll be pleased to know NO cushions on my bed.
But and I'm going to come across all (female) Victor Meldrewy I can't stand my husbands driving. Is that a bad thing to say??? The last time I got in the car with him he drove me to Uxbridge so I could have a Costa with the girls and I swear my face almost melted into a lorrys. My life flashed before my eyes and possibly the lorry drivers but he would have at least survived all the way u there in his castle. I think he went to the Frank Spencer school of motoring and they passed him as didn't want to see him back there again, hee hee (ssssh or he may never taxi me around again)
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