Please don't get me wrong I truly love where we live but the niggles are starting to set in, no more so than when I discovered that our 4 weekly trip back (home) wasn't going to happen this week due to lack of funds (blame the petrol costs if you will). And the realisation that I would get to see my two oldest children (21 & 20) and no doubt thy don't need to see me but I miss them. Then there's my mum and dad and my friends I just need that fix every so often to keep me going.
Which has led to me looking at hubby working once again in Heathrow will it get us back, doubtful. Do we want to go back hmmmmm!!!???!!!
Ideal situation would be an hours (max) journey away from the formally named place called home.
In an idyllic location. You can't beat where we live, vast open spaces, beautiful countryside, polite & friendly people but day in day out its the same thing .........................
Get up, everyone dressed and ready for school (8 mile round trip) , back walk to the post office, back walk to the dog, back make lunch, do some work whilst little man sleeps (today its blog time) and then pick up kids from school (8 mile round trip), walk dog, cook dinner, wash up, walk dog and then time for snuggles with hubby which almost always ends with my falling asleep by 9 now, old age?? no more like boredom without realising it :(. I have spent the entire week just crying for no reason; when your dad phones you and tells you that he is donating his fuel allowance to us as we need it more breaks my heart, it seriously does. I'm starting to worry that i'll start heading down a downward spiral that I won't be able to get myself back out of.
With finances the way they are, we can't explore this beautiful place that we live in. Did we make a mistake moving here?? In hindsight yes!!! I can see why people wait till they retire now, they have the luxury of not needing to search on a daily basis for work, the luxury of knowing they are ruining their children's lives by the constant uprooting of schools, friends, lifestyles etc. Eldest son has already said he'll move but only if he can be homeschooled (understandable given that he is never sure of anything) and better wii fi connection possibly would be better if we just moved 3 miles down the road.
We struggle to find the petrol costs for the daily commute to school, we struggle with the fact that we can't join any clubs for little man again due to finance, we struggle knowing that 2011 has been a struggle basically (can I pull this blog up enlighten it a bit?? possibly not lol).
Hubby is bored with licking envelopes wouldn't we all be?? but what to do?? I have started applying for full time work which grieves me because I want to be around to spend time with little man but with hubby not enjoying his job and this being his first touch of a real job in 4 months the futures bleak for him unless we move back near an airport.
Locations looking into so far chilterns?? Chalfonts etc beautiful place to live I feel more research going on??
Next blog to be escaping from the country but hopefully to the coutry (if that makes sense lol).
Pros for staying: Pros for going:
Cheaper rent better job prospects
Idyllic area closer to family and friends
Nice south norfolk council people (truly nice) petrol costs will be at a min possibly
Appts that wk with dr's might be able to find a similar closer location??
Kids are happy with schs
Kids have friends
Hubby has his football
Fab walks with the dog
friendly area / friendly full stop!!
Possibility of being able to afford to buy a house one day.
Move to the sea is possible here
larger house to rent would make it more viable to stay here
winning the lottery would be good too
Ok there seem to be more pros to stay than go .........................hmm shall ponder the thought and get back to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Little man still asleep shall I do some work now??)
TTFN!!!
